insomnia

[afuna]

Am still not sleeping properly. Keep jerking awake just before I reach a restful level of sleep, and it's beginning to show in my eyes. (Everyone keeps urging me to head to bed, but I can't. Or rather I can lie in bed, but then I'll just stay awake or wake up in a few minutes.) I've only been able to get sleep by staying up until 4 or 5am, but I'm awake by 8am anyway.

Have been subsisting on naps, and relying on adrenaline to keep myself going throughout the day. I don't trust myself in this state. (Don't trust my thought process or my coherency. Coherentness. Co... ability to make sense).

However, it looks like this has not affected my ability to play games. In an effort to exhaust myself enough to go to sleep, I've started playing the vocabulary game at FreeRice.com and have so far reached level 48 (out of 50) which, according to the FAQ, is pretty rare. Have donated 2040 grains of rice while doing so :)

Check out that site, by the way. It's fun, educational, and you actually get to help someone ten grains of rice at a time.

Comments

[lady-angelina.livejournal.com]

Hey. All things considered, it's a good thing you can get any sleep at all. A couple of hours is always better than none. And... it's very understandable if you don't feel "all here" for now. Give it some time and just be good to yourself (playing games is always a wonderful start =) ).

*HUGS*

[afuna]

It feels a bit strange to me that I'm able to play games right now. The funeral isn't even over yet :/ But I do play.

[idonotlikepeas]

You have to do something. Don't beat yourself up over it; he wouldn't have wanted you to just sit there and do nothing but be depressed.

[afuna]

I know, but it's sometimes difficult to *know*, though I guess you would know this?

...I should shut up now :)

[alsatia.livejournal.com]

Oooh, neat link! I'm at level 42 with 4,000 grains donated.

[pauamma]

Yay fun game!

[afuna]

Speaking of fun, I've begun reading DM Lord of the Rings ;)